How do you mourn for someone who hasn’t died?

               For someone that’s alive and well,

            And worst of all – without you.

       How do you let go of something

   You swore to hold onto?

                When you build someone up in your mind

            It’s so hard to demolish what you’ve created.

       I’ll pretend I don’t know who you are

  The next time I see you around town.

            I’ll pretend I’m not jealous

        When I hear you’re with wife and child.

   I’ll pretend I don’t hope you’re a wreck without me.

And I’ll pretend I didn’t mourn